Recently i have been worrying about my life again.. I can’t stop thinking about the fact that I completely ruined my education by giving up on going to university the first year then the second time doing the exact same… Now having to save up thousands of pounds to go back to education and live my dream really makes me realise how stupid and careless I was 4 years ago.
To be honest even if I did graduate already I really doubt I’d be living in Japan now just because of past events that have occurred.
I guess Its just a little frustrating that most of my friends around me have graduated already, I know I shouldn’t be comparing myself to others but sometimes I really can’t help it but notice these things..
And I seriously can’t stand having to answer “have you graduated” “what are you studying” type questions, it just seems like whenever I do answer these kinda questions, they just think I’m not doing anything with my life or I’m stupid or something.
Right now I just feel stuck.. I miss my dad sometimes and I hate that feeling when I can see something is missing or when I hear his voice inside my head.
But I am honestly so glad that I love taking photos and blogging now, it really does bring me peace and helps me forget about all the mistakes I made in the past.